The Journey

The past weeks have had many highs and lows in our adoption journey. The bank turned  down the loan and we just really didn't know what we would do. That week at church our Pastor was preaching a sermon about when God says no. I left feeling so sad. Was God saying no, after all this time, and with our whole hearts invested in this little boy being our son. We prayed and talked about it. Michael didn't feel God was saying no, just that we had to not give up and work harder. I was really seeking God's will. I've learned that no matter how bad we want something, if it's not God's will, and we take it into our own hands, it wouldn't be good. But I was so sure he was our son. We were at the end of having anything else to try, and there were no answers. Then it hit me. Quan had been told about us. He was excited and it gave him hope. How do you take that away. God would never have allowed him to be told about us if we weren't going to adopt him. That would be so cruel. That's not God. He would never allow that. But I didn't know what else to do. So I called Show Hope,  I was so desperate, and crying. And they told me they had been contacted by the American Christian Credit Union in California and that I should call them. I did. Everything finally started getting better. Finally we were seeing answers. We aren't there yet, but we are moving forward and we're finally back to seeing this is going to happen. There are no words to explain how happy we are. Thank God. And thank you everyone for praying, We got our I800 approval and everything is on its way.