2 weeks!!

With 2 weeks to go, for the first time, I am coming apart at the seems a bit. Feeling a little stressed. I'm really nervous. Not about my beautiful son, I can't wait to finally meet him and to have him home! That could not come soon enough. I do have some butterflies. I mean I hope he likes me. I know he'll love Michael. But I am actually really nervous about the travel part. I am such a home body. It's ridiculous. I am really venturing out of my comfort zone. I always dreamed of going back to China. Just in my dreams I was never going alone. I really love this child. And my new son, can you imagine what kind of butterflies he must have. I keep telling myself, if he can do what he is about to do, I certainly can do this. I realized tonight that we are not going to be in the same part of Guangzhou that we were the last time and I had a melt down. Not really sure why. But I was kind of gearing up for getting there, which is the last part of the trip, because it would be familiar. I do not like the unknown. And getting on a plane to Korea, finding a connecting flight to Beijing, several flights around China before leaving Guangzhou with my sons to find all the connecting flights again, until we are finally home. Nothing familiar in that.  Hmmm, Getting home. That's when all the unknowns start for our new son. And it's not just for a few weeks. He will be learning a new language. New everything.  Everything is unfamiliar. Oh my very brave boy.  This adoption has been a walk of faith. Knowing we are suppose to be a family. Knowing this was God. Now with the trip, I have to trust and believe, God's got this. He has to equip me to leave my comfort zone. I pray for His protection over us. I pray He brings peace to Frankie's heart. I pray that this is a blessing and growth opportunity for Joshua. I pray for God's protection over our home, that He keeps the girls, pets, and Michael well while we are gone. I pray for Selah.   That is my dog Selah, who is a French Mastiff, with a lot of "issues". We have Copper, Maddy, and Chrissy, who were rescues, and then Selah who is our "non rescue" rescue. She is afraid of everything and everyone including Michael, and never leaves my side. She's my very high maintenance baby and I am seriously concerned how this is going to work out with her staying home with Michael. Allie is having a very tough time with my leaving. I can't even think about being away from the girls or I'll cry. Oh boy. So... I was thinking I will tell Allie I need her to look after Selah. Hopefully that will help both of them, and me. O.k. now I am babbling. I told you....the seems started coming apart tonight. With that note......2 Timothy 1:7 God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. Good night all.  :)