What to say

We got everything done on time. Spent $60 to overnight it....it got there on time. We were busy this morning doing more adoption related stuff. The anticipation of seeing that email that it was received..... and then the bad news. Someone from our agency had not signed a form that was needed for our dossier to be sent to China. I would like to say I stayed calm. But after many emails back and forth, and finding out that the girl that needs to sign the paper is out of the country....I lost it. I really did. I was crying, frustrated and upset. We really jumped through hoops the last 2 weeks. Three trips to the city, literally running through the city at times, staying up all night making copies with a challenging copier, being at the doors of offices before they were open. Over nighting everything to make it in time and then a form is missing that I didn't even know about! Uuuugggghhhh! Really. I'm sad. We have great people helping us. And great agencies. I have to step back and say maybe it is all God's timing. I have to think that. It's out of my hands, We have to give it to God. It's just hard feeling like we are losing weeks with every glitch that comes up. My little guy is growing up in an orphanage and I just want to get him home. He turned 9 last week while we were busy doing paperwork!  If you could see the stack of papers and all the official stamps on everything and saw what we have gone through, how hard we have worked....from classes to letters, to forms, trying to learn the whole process of how to apply for everything and what form is needed and goes where with what, running all over the place to collect everything. We've gotten every clearance, physical, reference,form that can possibly be needed. Just please someone let us come get our child now. I know I am being a complaining whiner. But it hurts. Enough already. We want him home.